Last night, one of my sons and I discussed ways of diagramming out ideas of interest to us. When I diagram out ideas, it gives me better insights into the subject.
I also realize there are times when a good illustration communicates an idea clearer than words do. Two of the ideas I’ve been exploring concern the relationship of limerence to numbness. Both of these experiences are involved with affair recovery.
I’ve seen limerence addressed and numbness discussed, yet the relationship between them hasn’t been touched on much. At this point, I see numbness the precursor to limerence with the cheater.
They feel numb inside and they start looking for some experience, such as an affair to spark the sensation of being alive. Since they’ve been numb for so long, the spark is viewed as them ‘being in love’.
They may even say that they’re in love. In previous generations, this was talked about in terms of being ‘in lust’.
The term for this being ‘in lust’ is now called limerence. In my writings, I’ve talked about this phenomena in terms of the start of the ‘Affair Fog‘.
Numbness is also a factor during recovery from the affair. At that point, you want to avoid feeling anything. You’ve been so overwhelmed for so long, you can’t take any more feeling.
It’s your brain and body’s way of letting you know it’s been overloaded. The overload numbness is very different from the lack of feeling numbness experienced prior to the affair.
Numbness becomes problematic when it’s used as your main way of dealing with any issue. Being numb also means you’re unavailable.
At those times, you’re there in body, but any sense of connection is missing.
When the connection is gone, it’s likely that you’re in the midst of going through Affair Trauma. Even though you may not think of it in terms of a ‘trauma’, the fact that you’re numb and not available to connect with others says otherwise.
Eventually, you’ll have to rejoin life and all that comes with it. You’ll need to deal with life on life’s terms.
In order to help you get there, download the video “Overcoming Affair Trauma”. It gives you instruction in the steps needed in moving past the trauma and numbness.
The longer the trauma paralyzes you, the more you grow accustomed to it. That numbness is not your friend.
You need interaction with people. You need connection.
Find out ways of re-connecting and gaining some self-soothing with the material in the video.
Numbness doesn’t have to become a part of your daily life.
Keeping It Real,
Jeff
